unsensed.

My body aches.
My heart,I don't even know how to describe what my heart is feeling.

I'm partly swollen by anger.
Partly by longing.

I'm angry at you for leaving without a note.
For ,just, walking away without even looking back.

Guessing.
Fighting with my own thoughts.

Asking.
Creating answers to fulfill myself.

I envy the heart I used to have.
When you were a part of it.

When you've colored it.
Without me even noticing.

I hate surprise minutes.
When you suddenly appear in my thoughts.

Like now.
Like tonight.

Shall I kill you in my head ?.
Shall I throw you outside my heart ?.

Even the smallest bits of you,
bleed me.